Today is May 3, 2012 and I don't think I'm going to make it. Read my earlier posts and I really didn't have it that bad.

Life Sucks

I cannot stand any of this. I will never be well. Here 17 months and hating every moment. Worst mistake of my life.

STOP!!!!

Stop the world I want to get off NOW!!

Yuck

LIFE AT THIS,TIME SUCKS

Boring

Everything about New York is boring. I hate being here. It is too cold, I have nothing to do every day and I wish I was back in Arizona. We are poor, we have only one car and I get stuck in the house day after day with nothing to do. If I had a car I could have gotten several jobs by now. But Paul doesn't make money and so we are stuck with the current situation. Lisa is an idiot because she continues to live with someone who makes no money and gets drunk every night. But who does she pick on? Me, not him. Life is just unfair. I can't wait to get the hell out of here. Please God hear my plea!!!!

What Am I Doing

Well. I'm in NY over 2 months and it is so boring. I don't have a car so I can't go anywhere. I stay home all day and listen to music, do housework, dance, watch TV and basically go nuts. I can't wait until the spring when I get my SS early and hope to move to Florida. NY is too expensive to live on what I'll get. Wish me luck. I also need a car!

New York

I am now in New York and have kicked the dust of Arizona from my shoes. I have been here just over a month. It's different, to put it mildly. I haven't driven a car in over a month. I live with my sister and her husband and it's not always fun. He gets drunk and stupid every night and she just puts up with it. The other night he cracked the bathroom mirror and she just let's it slide. No wonder I feel stress. I might as well be living with Dave again in the good old days. I sure hope things change or I will be sorry I killed my dog and left my home.